It seems over the latter years I have spent much time and energy on strengthening my emotional and spiritual life and less time and energy on caring for my physical body.
After all my drama with my failed attempt at the 'couch to 5k run' which led to hundreds of dollars on x-rays, physiotherapy and acupuncture to fix up the damage that would return soon as I started to exercise again. I put on an extra couple of kilo's and sunk into an attitude of post-menopausal post fifty-four, past use-by date depression.
Thank God for the recent dance retreat I participated in, where I proved to myself that I am strong and resilient. Thank God too, for the joy in finding a fantastic, inexpensive, well qualified, beautiful person/fitness instructor who is taking me through a rehabilitation program to get all my muscles and joints back in alignment and strengthened so I can eventually jog without pain. I'm seeing positive results already. Best of all, in the summer these sessions are conducted just a short walk down the road from my place in a beautiful park shaded with trees.
I am taking time out to swim regularly. I also attend a Contact Improvisation dance twice a week that is incredibly strengthening while at the same time having so much fun. InterPlay continues once a month but I find when I am leading I don't get as much movement in as those participating.
I'm finding it helpful to tell myself "My body is strong" or "I have the strength " instead of all the negative stuff I was telling myself around my fitness.. I try to stand taller and allow my inner core to stabilise me rather than collapsing into myself and moaning. Anyway, it is hard work but I am happy with the activities I'm doing and I am bound to see some long term changes for the better.